“Do you love me now?”
I awoke this morning wanting to ask God the question, “Do you love me now?”
In the well known story of the prodigal son, we hear the story of how we sometimes choose to separate ourselves from God. We say, “thanks for the gift of life, I’m out of here,” leaving our father’s house, to live as we will. To live as if it is just us, as if we were somehow separate from the great love that created us, separate from the stream of providence, separate from one another. We hear the story of how living with this belief of separateness eventually leads to isolation and spiritual depletion.
And some of our motivation for going away seems to be a need to push the boundaries, to see if that great love will follow us no matter how far we go.
It’s like the Push me, Pull you game in love, “Do you love me when I’m like this? How about now? If you see me at my worst will you love me?”
While human love is rarely unconditional and often cannot withstand these kinds of tests, God’s love is big enough to handle our antics.
Yes, God still loves me now! No matter how ugly it gets, no matter how much I make myself miserable, no matter what, in every moment that love is pouring forth beyond measure and inviting me to come home.
June 02 2010 09:12 am | Uncategorized
Little Brother on 02 Jun 2010 at 8:32 pm #
Nice.